Canto y bailo.

hey

2008-11-06T05:44:49Z

I moved.

http://kashmirror.blogspot.com/

kashmirbones @ 2008-04-26T17:35:00

2008-04-26T22:39:20Z

My dad had this goal.
He wanted to have $1000 in his wallet.
It is stupid, but it is just something he really wanted.
He just wanted to be that guy with a wad of money in his wallet.
He added his last hundred dollars to his wallet a few weeks ago.
This morning, he checked it, and it was all gone.
Someone that my parents invited INTO THEIR HOME stole all one thousand dollars from him.

kashmirbones @ 2008-04-18T14:52:00

2008-04-18T19:53:49Z

oh no no no no no no no no.

kashmirbones @ 2008-04-10T22:54:00

2008-04-11T03:55:45Z

one of these days I am going to stand up and fight for it.

my bad.

2008-04-04T06:46:28Z

I am so unbelievably mean and I am so so so so sorry.
I can never ever admit when I am wrong.
I always say "I will try..." but it never works out that way, does it?
I never realize it when it happens.
It just does.
I am so sorry that I made you feel so terrible.
I am so sorry that you'll never see this.

kashmirbones @ 2008-03-18T02:45:00

2008-03-18T07:51:44Z

I am tired, I don't feel well, and I constantly make stupid choices.
AND WHY DOES IT TAKE SO LONG FOR MY NAILS TO DRY?!
I am completely terrified that I will fuck them up.
I wish I had a nailpolish remover pen.
How amazing would that thing be?
How amazing would it be to just get SOMETHING that I want?

kashmirbones @ 2008-02-22T23:25:00

2008-02-23T05:37:47Z

I miss the way you look.
smell.
taste.
distance numbs everything.
absence makes the heart grow fonder, but time makes the mind forget,
and I have grown weary of trying to remember my greatest regrets.
I have been battling my weaknesses and fears
with very little success.
I can try to run, but the demons will catch up sooner or later...not even the master of deceit can hide behind fake smiles and shining eyes forever.

kashmirbones @ 2008-02-17T00:41:00

2008-02-17T06:43:11Z

one time I ran away.
it was pointless.
it got me nowhere.
just heartbroken in every possible way.

if you want it come and get it.

2008-02-04T21:20:56Z

I know what I want.
I know I know I know I know.
And I can have it.
I just have to go get it.

I pose, to you, a question!

2008-01-25T21:22:00Z

Here is what I need to know:
Is it worth it to leave everything behind, the opportunities and the chances, for something that will probably send me running home, tail tucked between my legs? Again?

el ciervo vulnerado

2008-01-05T22:57:41Z

I've been drinking black mirror again
the closer we part
i needed to touch your lips
with the nail in my heart
the night that you caught me
my coffin did walk
i fell at your mercy
i fell in your grave
meccamputechture
that stands in my way
the younger i stay
an elderly child
the longer the mirror gives birth
to the death i file

if you consume me i will not let you go
if you walk right through me
my voice will taint your throat
blessed be the wrong i've done

someone is watching us
somoene has found
flourescent ligaments
on a black white tile
why do you call them
if your kingdom won't come
the younger i stay
forever i rot

if you consume me i will not let you go
if you walk right through me
my voice will taint your throat
blessed be the wrong i've done

because the flies my mouth spill
bare the children at play

Od' und leer das Meer.

2007-12-22T05:11:56Z

Frisch weht der Wind
Der Heimat zu.
Mein Irisch Kind,
Wo weilest du?

rubadubdub

2007-10-18T02:15:55Z

It's one thing to look me over.
I'm used to that.
But do you have to rub it in my face?
Really?

kashmirbones @ 2007-09-07T22:13:00

2007-09-08T03:21:15Z

....The streets grew shorter,
the night grew black.
I don't know where I'm going
but I'll never look back.....

nobody's fault but mine.

2007-03-30T04:24:15Z

I am fucking weird.
Seriously.

I went back and read this old ass entry I posted....like...from a year ago. It was about this dude in my spanish class thinking I wouldn't know what a pacsun was.

I about cried laughing because I remember that shit.

It's weird though...I can't imagine why I even spoke to him. I don't talk to anybody anymore.

I am ready to get outta here, but I know that if I leave, it will just be more of the same. I don't understand how to be with people anymore. I don't get it. Any social skills I ever had are fucking gone. I am uncomfortable around people I know.

I went to Clarksville in October for Jackie's birthday, and I felt so strange. I felt like an invader. Everyone has changed. They are grown-up and beautiful and coming into their own. I am still exactly the same.

I am still exactly the same.

everything's fine.

2007-03-26T05:23:55Z

I'm hungry, I'm dirty, I'm losing my mind....

back

2007-02-22T06:22:47Z

Nov 30 was my last update.
Nearly three months ago.
I can't believe it's been so long.

How you've changed lj.
You've changed enough to look different, but this....this right here is still the same. It looks the same and it feels the same.

So, where was I when last you saw me?
I guess, more importantly, where am I now?

After the wreck, I was in a wheelchair. For a long time. I didn't start using my crutches until I got my cast off, the Friday before this semester started. Even then, I still used my wheelchair around the house until my doctor gave me the go ahead to start putting weight on my foot. What a relief to feel the tendons stretch after months of disuse.

Even now that I have graduated to crutches full time, it is almost pleasureable to feel the burn/stretch/pressure when I step down on my right foot.

All I want to do is roll around in full sounds and rich colors.
But how?

kashmirbones @ 2006-11-30T23:00:00

2006-12-01T04:00:55Z

It all fell into place when we crashed.

galactic.

2006-11-03T21:26:13Z

galaxies
fall down my cheeks
galaxies.

kashmirbones @ 2006-06-27T12:46:00

2006-06-27T17:54:58Z

late is the hour,
early in the day,
the sky glowing blue,
(but in some spots still gray).

wildflowers rush to meet the road
waving on their stalks as she rushes by.

where the road turns to gravel,
dreams take sharp turn.
better or worse? I cannot say,
but, oh! how they burn!

in her praire of primrose,
her pasture of prose,
(she lies where the pavement becomes rock).

in the still of the morning,
clouds floating by,
(recall the glowing-blue, gray-spotted sky):
the flowers are friends,
her words are lovers,
the gravel her warden,
the sky her cover.

time stands still
as the world rushes by her
and deep down inside
her soul is on fire.

kashmirbones @ 2006-05-07T23:45:00

2006-05-08T04:46:16Z

The chaos that ensued.
Holy Christ.
As if I needed to remember what it was like to be home.

White Unicorn

2006-05-01T16:20:26Z

Have you been to the carnival
I would like to see you.
Theres a whole lot of people there
who would like to be you.
With the white uncorn, across her shoulder,
makes you think that she might of been,
someone whos older, ahh yeahhh....

And I know it's on your mind.
We've been drinking on the wine
that we drank from the serpents vine.
Now we live in another time...
We could live together...
We could live together...

She lives on the borderline,
that they call hazel.
And the tent that she lives in
has the name of her lover...

And I know it's on your mind.
We've been drinking on the wine
that we drank from the serpents vine
Now we live in another time.

Sister can you tell me when the day turns to night?
She left without a word and wondered inside,
How many day's must I still wonder why?
And see her face in every passer by?

We could live together...
We could live together...

And I know it's on your mind.
We've been drinking on the vine
that we drank from the serpents vine.
Now we live in another time.

We could live together...
We could live together...
We can live together...

kashmirbones @ 2006-04-22T01:24:00

2006-04-22T06:25:50Z

I´m waiting for spring to come to my kingdom
I´m waiting for spring to come to my kingdom
You should know
I´m waiting for spring to come to my kingdom
I´m counting on you here
His kiss of spring
His kiss
I´m waiting for spring to come to my kingdom
His kiss of spring
I´m waiting for spring to come to my kingdom
His kiss of spring
It´s the chill
Without the thrill
I´m waiting for spring to come to my kingdom
To my kingdom...

The faithless.

2006-04-21T23:23:26Z

They pray out to gods who'll always remain faceless
and they turn their heads away from the nameless
they live their pious lives, oh, they are so shamless
when they turn around and call us the faithless

but I believe in a free world
and I believe in love for every boy and every girl
and I believe in peace and I believe in love and I beleive the we all can dance
baby, I believe we can do it, even if no one else thinks we can.

kashmirbones @ 2006-04-17T19:41:00

2006-04-18T00:41:49Z

I don't feel safe in my skin.